OK. I'm depressed blah blah blah... But how do I fix it? Is a really good question that I had to ask myself a while ago. And... I don't got shit. Next question that I had to ask myself was: Do you want it to change? And this is where I realized that... I don't. Listen I don't want to change because this has just become... Normal. I've been this self-loathing selfish ass that it's become normal in a sense. I don't mean like, everyday normal, I know it's wrong but I've grown used to hating myself. And now I'm forced to change and it feels weird. I still feel like shit.